Sometimes...

Sometimes I contemplate about deleting the good ole' blog, but I just can't do it! You see, I graduated with a degree in Communications, which may lead to the assumption that I enjoy communicating? 

Perhaps.

In all honesty, I love to write. I am, by no means, the best at it & I have become increasingly aware of the fact that some of my spelling and grammar skills are quite rusty. I suppose that's what happens when you graduate and rejoice at the thought of never writing another 40 page paper again?

EVER!

I don't write in the hopes of this blog becoming popular by any means. So basically, this is my little outlet that I get to escape to (hopefully more often than every 6 months) and just write.
I often joke about that degree of mine- it is sometimes referred to as my very expensive piece of paper that once took up space on our living room wall. 

It now is collecting dust in a secluded corner of our bedroom with a sock and some stray bobby pins. Don't tell my Dad!

Timing definitely wasn't on my side as I graduated in the midst of what would become a massive recession. I remember thinking, "this isn't what I had in mind!"  I thought you were swept off your feet by competing companies, all to eager for your "skills" (once you descended the stairs at graduation). Surly the offers would begin to pour in?

They didn't.

Although it made me a bit nervous at first, I shrugged it off and continued to plan for our wedding coming at the end of the year. That kept me busy. The big day came and went.

Fast forward more than a year later and SURPRISE!

We are with child (does anyone use that phrase anymore?)! Extremely ecstatic and terrified all at once, I realized that I would most likely never have that fancy, schmancy, well paying job I had been eagerly awaiting--something to justify all those years of school (a.k.a stress).

Before we even said our "I Do's" we talked about our desires for a family and all of the details that come along with that, such as having yours truly stay at home- if at all possible. What I didn't know was how rewarding, challenging, isolating, complex and wonderful it would be. Does that make sense? I feel as though it's frowned upon to mention that the task at hand is not an easy one!
Some may take that declaration wrong & suggest that I'd rather be doing something else.

Let me assure you, I absolutely love spending every day with my son! 

I get to do the daily recap for my husband; the good and the not so good, but I love it all. The diapers, the kisses, meltdowns over being told "no", Cherrio mine fields, and piles of laundry- I welcome it all, because it means I am blessed enough to spend the day with my son.

Talk about a whirlwind!

So that's where I'm at...Finding my balance in my world as a Stay At Home Mom. 

This is a whole new level of craziness and I only have one child!

More to come.